I sat in front of three career judges at the Fresh Careers Fair smiling warmly and proudly telling them about my dreams, my aspirations and giving snippets of some of the work I have done in the direction of my dreams. They all fell in love with me and commended the fact that I thought about giving back to humanity, most especially my race. The thing is I quickly fell in love with them too because their warmth, commendations and encouragement reminded me that I am more than enough! That my contribution makes a lot of difference and even when it seems like a drop in the ocean, it will surely add up someday and that renewed my hope. It was midday already and I have spoken to almost all the exhibitionist in the hall.
So I finally found myself a place to seat, I reminisced about how far I have come on my journey. It’s been a long winding road and I can assure you the ride has been everything but smooth with loads of bumps and huge potholes that threatened to swallow my very existence but grace has brought me this far. You see I was that timid, shy, insecured girl who failed so hard and made so many mistakes she stopped believing in herself. I was that girl who at some point was so broken she felt like a mirror that has been shattered into a million pieces. I remember sitting on the floor of my room one day with tears rolling down my face like the trickles of rain water on a metal drum and I asked myself, Comfort will you ever be whole again? I have failed so I understand the joy of success, I have been broken so I treasure the gift of wholeness, I have felt inadequate for too long so I allow myself the pleasure of being more than enough, I have been at my weakest so I appreciate strength.
I got tired of being tired, I got tired of feeling so much pain and brokenness and just at that moment it dawned on me I’ve got to do something about it. Little did I know that life was only preparing me to be a light that shines so bright others can be lighted through it. Like a diamond I have to go through the refiner’s fire for the sparkle and the true beauty to be revealed. Like a badge of honour I wear my scars because they remind me of how far I have come and how beautiful my journey has been. Like a butterfly coming out of its cocoon i’m all shades of amazing, like the Proverbs 31 woman I’m clothed in dignity and honour.
I’m still work in progress but for now I take a pause to celebrate me, my new found confidence…it sure looks good on me! To celebrate my strength, my peace and my wholeness. Today I raise my glass in toast to every amazing woman out there. This is to let you know that even if it doesn’t look like it now you are beautiful, graceful and full of strength. I came to tell you that no matter what is happening now you will always emerge on the other side better and stronger if you don’t give up. I said all of that just so you know that you are MORE THAN ENOUGH! Hold on to it, let it seep into your spirit and you will be surprised what you can achieve.
We are on a journey here, fasten your seatbelts…