#Be Intentional Series
It was a beautiful summer morning and the rays of sunlight that lazily graced my face woke me up from my sleep. I stretched my hand to grab my phone and it was just 7:30am, I honestly wished it was 7:30pm. I had cried myself to sleep again and I wish I would wake and suddenly realise it was all a bad dream but unfortunately it was my reality. I felt like a mirror shattered into million pieces, broken, bruised and shattered.
You see I had just walked out of an abusive marriage at the age of thirty three at the time and the people I relied on for love and support not only abandoned me but betrayed me in the most vicious way. So I felt the stab of their betrayal even more than I felt the brokenness of my marriage. More so, I checked out of the marriage emotionally before I had the courage to step out physically.
My heart was filled with questions, fears, doubts and my face was a constant overflow of tears. Sometimes my grieve will slowly give way to anger, I was angry at myself, at God, my parents and everyone around me. I would ask questions like why me? What went wrong? I was never in a hurry to marry, I tried to be a good girl most times😀, I enjoyed being single and prayed a lot. The problem is I had gone through life on other people’s terms, plans and basically lived their live not mine.
Anyway, I finally woke up from my pity party, decided I have had enough and it is time to finally get my groove back. I had to face my truth, walk/work my journey with intentionality, unlearn, learn and re-learn. I meant both my software and hardware needs huge reset! I have forgotten who I was, my self-esteem and confidence were in shreds and I was perpetually depressed.
So I set out on this journey of healing, self-discovery and wholeness but this time with God in the equation. I was determined to turn the situation around for good. It took me three years of hardwork, growing intimacy with the Father and learning to walk again in all areas of my life to go the full cycle. Yet I can boldly stand here and say I made it! My life became a blessing to me and everyone that crosses my path.
Trust me the journey back to “YOU” will be your hardest, longest and most painful journey you ever make. Yet I assure you that if you will trust your process and dare to own your journey, it will be the best journey you ever make and the greatest gift you ever received.
Today I am proud of the woman I have become! I found my calling and became an emotional wellness coach specialising in abuse and trauma recovery. Just last night I finished a goal setting masterclass called “Amplify” and the result was amazing! I mean I still got a call this afternoon from someone and in his words he said, “I dare say you are not only gifted but you are graced”.
I thank God for giving me the beautiful gift but I have had to work hard to sharpen and shape that gift. I didn’t get here by chance darling, I got here by design and intentionality. It was a hard, long and sometimes painful journey but it is sooooo worth it!
Take a pause, step back and ask yourself: Am I living my life on auto-pilot or I am consciously and intentionally owning my journey and writing my own story in the sand of time? The truth is your legacy is not some huge philanthropic act you do when you are finally as rich as Bill Gates and about 80years. Your legacy is the impact you have on everyone that crosses your path, it is the outpouring of yourself in fulfilling your purpose knowing fully well that you are an important part of that big puzzle. It is the little acts of love, kindness and compassion you pour out to the world on a daily basis. It is in the transformation that you bring into your life, your family, community and your nation. It is in the meaningful contribution you make in someone’s life and that simple touch that says I truly love you.
I challenge you to raise your standards, live from the fullest part of you, dare to be authentic and live intentionally😍😍😍
P.S: This is my last post for the year 2017 and I use this opportunity to say thank you to my loved ones, friends,mentors, spiritual leaders, fans and clients. Thanks for being a part of my journey, for love, support and laughter. I love you all and wish you a prosperous new year.
#Be Intentional Series